Ramblings

Inklings of my own

 

Inklings 2018 pic     It’s that day again… the day I bake scones, drink coffee with friends and celebrate two wonderful writers whose works cultivated a love for myths in me at an early age. C.S. Lewis, author of The Chronicles of Narnia, and J.R.R. Tolkien, author of The Lord of the Rings, met on this day over ninety years ago. Shortly thereafter, Tolkien sent Lewis an epic poem he had written. It was filled with lore and myth and the fantastical realm, passions they both shared. Lewis returned the poem several days later with notes, critiques and even suggestions for how Tolkien could make his lines flow better. Can you imagine actually critiquing Tolkien? It sounds almost absurd. But Lewis did, as well as passing along one of his own poems. And so began a small community revolving around this idea of sharing and critiquing one another’s works. You might know them as the Inklings.

But today, instead of talking about the original Inklings, and their vast influence on each other and the countless books birthed through their gatherings, I want to tell you about my own set of Inklings.

In 2016, I moved to Berlin for a 9-month internship. (Yes. Yes. Two years later I’m still here, but that’s another story.) About three months in, I realized the short story that I had been playing around with wasn’t a short story. Much to my great displeasure, it was a novel. I was a little baby writer who had written a mere handful of things. This craft was new to me, and I had no idea what I was doing. To be cliché, I found myself in front of a mountain with no map, no supplies, and no training whatsoever.

By grace, I had moved to a city that embraces artists and I found a writing class targeted toward people who were just starting to write their novels and needed guidance. Oddly specific right? Kate, my teacher was brilliant, wise, experienced and kind. (*Insert shameless plug for the Reader Berlin and Kate who is AMAZING).

We spent the first four weeks learning the basics of novel writing, and the last four weeks reading a chapter of each other’s work and critiquing the pieces in class. Once again, I had no idea what I was doing. My typical response to art had always been “I really liked it” or “this is so beautiful.” And that wasn’t good enough here. It was fine to say those two phrases, but it needed to be followed by a “because…” or a “but…”

I also learned it was okay not to say those two phrases. That is was perfectly fine to look at a writer and politely say, “you know, this wasn’t really my thing. However, I did appreciate when you…” For a half-southern girl raised in the land of buttered words and sugared expressions, being open and honest when I didn’t like something felt like I was slapping someone in the face and kicking them in the stomach once they fell in the dirt.    But then it was my turn to have my piece critiqued, and I realized that critique isn’t a slap in the face at all, but a friend telling me to pick up the pen and try again. Critique can be a loving teacher pointing out what I need to work on and how I could improve. Every single person at that table took time to read my work, think about how it could improve, and share their thoughts with me. They didn’t do this to be cruel, they did this so that one day my dream of seeing Aedaliegh of Arceldör in a bookstore might become reality.

When the course ended, a few of us would meet at coffee shops throughout the city to sit quietly at a table and write together. The next course came and we signed up again, seeking more feedback and more knowledge of writing as a craft. When Kate offered her next course, an entire 10 weeks solely spent reading and critiquing each other’s work, I immediately signed up. This, I was learning, was how I really get my novel to go somewhere. Yes, it was helpful to learn about different styles of narration, using third person verse first person, and so much more. But I found that the critique is what spurred my book to be better. Not just when my own piece was critiqued, but also in the critiquing of others I learned what worked and what didn’t,  to spot a mistake, and even to anticipate what some of the feedback might be and make it better as I was writing the first draft.

Somewhere at the end of the third course, Kate hinted that some of us might be able to do this critique thing on our own. As we walked back to the subway that night, a few of us asked, “Could we really do this? Start our own group? Do we even want to?”

That August, five of us met in a living room and began this process on our own. We didn’t know how long it would last, but we wanted to see where it would go. It’s been hard. We’re all incredibly busy. Some of us have families. Some of us have had to leave the country for three months. I started a new job that makes me get up at 4:30 am on Tuesdays even though writing group last until 10 or 11 pm on Monday nights. We have had to make sacrificed to be in this group. We’re tired. We have little time. But all of us have made our books and this group a priority because we know it is one of the keys to our success.

A few weeks ago, I shared a scene I’d been hiding from this group for nearly two years. I was so nervous they would read this scene, throw the paper across the room and say something like, “What in the world, Bekah! You must be absolutely insane to write something like this.” But after two years with the group, I finally decided I trust them enough to share it. They loved it, which is still the most shocking thing that’s happened. They absolutely loved it and made me promise not to take it out. Then came the “but..” at the end of the chapter with a really sweet and lovely little moment I had written between Aeda and Fryderik. And my girl, Laura, looked at me, and said, “I was shocked because Aeda would never do this. It’s not her at all.”

She was right. It took me a minute to see what she was saying, but it hit me. Aeda would never do what I had her doing at the end of this scene. It went against everything she was. That night, Aeda got a wardrobe change, and all because Laura, over the past two years, has gotten to know my character almost as good as I have. I’ve said it for the last two years and I’ll say it again now…

The secret to creativity is to surround ourselves with a community. We were not made to work in solitude, but to share, to borrow, and to build upon each other.

When I tell people about this group, and what we do, they always say, “Oh, I must be hard to critique someone’s work. I could never do that.” And while that used to be my same opinion, I reply, “It’s not so hard after a while. I love their work, and I want to see them succeed.” And it’s true. I want to buy their books one day. I want them to buy mine. And in order for that to happen, you need more than one set of eyes.

The secret to the Inklings success was each other. C.S. Lewis may have never gotten some of his works published had it not been for Tolkien’s connections and recommendations (not to mention that his Space Trilogy actually started out as a dare from Tolkien.) Tolkien may have never gotten his head out of languages and anthologies long enough to write a plot had it not been for Lewis urging him to write the next chapter so that he could see what happens in the story.

If I ever get Aeda published, it will be because of these women. They have kept me writing when I was tired and wanted to forget Aeda altogether. They have given me ideas when I had no idea where to go. They have given me encouragement and critique. They have helped me see things I never did, and have made turned this lonely task of writing into a story of how I found my people.

I passionately believe that every Artist needs their Inklings. I will never stop proclaiming this. If you’re a lonely artist, you don’t have to be. Join a group. Create a group. Less than two years ago, these five women were strangers from five different parts of the world with three different mother tongues. And yet, two years later, here we are because we showed up, we spent time thinking through each other’s work, and we were honest with one another.

I believe that our success as artists directly correlates to the community around us. Today, I celebrate the five women who sit in a living room with me once a month and make Aeda more lovely, more true, and more captivating than she could ever be with just me.

If you don’t have your Inklings, find them. It will take time, but find them and let them revolutionize your work. They will, I promise.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Spoken Word

Jupiter

As mentioned in the video, one of my goals for this year (as well as continuing to work on my children’s novel, “Aedaliegh of Arceldör“) is to write seven poems based off of the book by Michael Ward, Planet Narnia,as well as the Chronicles themselves.

The first piece, entitled “Jupiter” ,  is based off the first book Lewis wrote “The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.”

Enjoy! And hopefully, there will be more to come soon.

https://youtu.be/x3NBMy6P608

Jupiter

The world has been drained of it’s color like hope from our souls.

We stay huddled in our houses, scared of what the woods might hold.

We’re are covered in white and frozen in fear,

too scared to raise our voices- too scared the trees might hear.

Still, we grasp at ancient words and hold fast to the hope

of a king that is coming, breaking through the snow

They say when he comes, all will be made right.

They say when he comes, we’ll dance unhindered in the light.

And at the sound of his name, our hearts begin to beat

like an army of warriors being woken from winter’s sleep.

Do you hear the red robin’s song echoes loudly through the trees?

Behold the brook begin to bubble like joy overflowing from the deep.

Shoots are springing from the ground as snow fades away.

Look there, the sun rising red as day begins to break.

Frozen rivers part and blossoms release their blooms

as if all of creation felt our longing to be renewed.

So we shed our winter coats like a profession of faith,

trading our fears for swords there along the bank.

Our faces glow red with the warmth of the sun

as we bow before the king- the one who’s finally come.

King Jupiter you are- The king above all kings.

You roar with laughter and reign in magnanimity.

You are lion-hearted, and yet saturated in peace.

You are joviality and song-  the very picture of Spring.

But winter has followed us and she is staking her claim.

She points out all our failures, our follies, our mistakes.

She tells us we’re not worthy to dance in summer’s sun,

but her voice is overshadowed by the king declaring “come!”

Thunder claps over us as cold collides with warmth.

We shiver at the shadows, yet still we raise our swords.

And just when darkness seems to swallow us whole,

we look up to find the dawn rolling in, igniting hope.

Like the morning sun spreading slowly across a field,

our king descends, proving he both conqueror and shield.

And we can but simply watch as his beauty mingles with his wrath.

Conquering what we could not, he is the king we always lacked.

He calls us before him and crowns us with new names.

We are Gentle. We are Just. Magnificent and Brave.

We take our place beside him and to this great joy we cling:

We are no more than servants; we are no less than kings.

Spoken Word

Ink

Surprise, Surpise. I wrote another poem* about my tattoos. I read it at a friend of mines party this week and thought I’d share it here. One day, I’d like to be one of those spoken word artists whose words pour out from their mouths slowly like molasses, full of body and rich flavor. Until then, I’ll hold tightly to my phone and say one too many “um”s before I start. We’re all learning how to be creatives. We all learning to speak boldly and look people in the eyes as we say “yes, I’m an artist.” 

*I wouldn’t really call it a poem, more of a “rhythmic rant.”

If you’re in Berlin, stop by “Art on the Terrace” and join our little creative community. 

Spoken Word

the Color of Home

 

 

Image-1 (2)Home looks a lot like the color green.

Coming home to little white house

against the backdrop of golden fields

with shutters that had been painted the perfect shade of hunter green.

You were our tiny grasp of the American dream.

You were a place to be free-

to run wild through pastures and carve mazes through fields of wheat.

I remember how we worked in those fields all summer long

building our little castle out of scraps we found.

I remember the sound of the shotgun when the farmer found us

Traipsing through his crops. We ran all the way home

until we found safety behind a great green door.

 

Home looks a lot like the color green.

One great wide expanse of a quadrilateral.

It was at the center of everything.

Your grass was the perfect shade of summer green,

surrounded by red brick buildings with white staircases spiraling up the sides.

How many times was the sun just too lovely to go to sit inside a classroom?

How many times did we throw down the weight we wore on our backs,

and throw Frisbee under the shade of giant oak trees?

The bell chimes and reminds us that another hour had passed.

One less hour that we could stay in the holy space.

The night before graduation, we escaped to this timeless expanse

And sat for our while in the dark of the night

ignoring the fears that came with tomorrow.

and the inevitable goodbyes we would have to say.

 

Home looks a lot like the color green.

It’s mint green tile covering the walls of the U-Bahn station

signaling that it is time to get off the subway,

that I can let my shoulders slump and my feet drag.

The day is over. My duties are done.

I grab a beer from the shop on the corner and take my time walking up cobblestone streets

that sparkle rose gold reflecting the setting sun.

and I inhale slowly, the edges of my mouth slowly curving up.

I can rest now. I am home.

Spoken Word

One Day

I’m supposed to be writing a paper for school right now. While as I was typing out my outline, I was reminded of a poem (or rant) that I started working on this past summer. It just never felt like the right time to post it. But as I was writing my paper on the same topic, I just got really excited reading it through (and also I’m procrastinating) so I’m posting it now.

It was inspired by a conversation with my friend, KG, way back in July when sunshine and warmth were things that existed.

 

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“Keep your fork, the best is yet to come.” -Southern Proverb

 


 

I want to sprint

straight on towards the horizon,

never turning or falling backward.

So that the pounding of my feet on pavement

will match the beating of my heart.

And I will stick up my chin and run into the wind-

one foot in front of the other in a perfect line.

But right now my feet are too swollen

from this dead weight that I bare

and so I find myself looking out the window

dreaming of a day when I’ll be able to leave this chair.

 

I want to speak.

I want to sing.

I want words to flow out of my mouth like poetry-

strong like a tide and loud like a waterfall.

But every time I try the words don’t come out right.

I just can’t…

I’m not able to…

Well the words, you see…

So I’m left typing on this computer screen

hoping the click-clack noises of my keyboard turn into a symphony.

 

And I want to see

right past those dense clouds and into eternity,

but my eyes are too weak to see the lines in own hands.

Like a blind man trying to find his lover in a crowd

I am always looking, always searching.

I strain my eyes and I put on glass lenses,

but everything always comes out distorted.

And so I walk home alone, and dream of a day

when I can once more look up at the clouds

And see ships and castles instead of another overcast sky.

 

Just tell me to pick up mat.

Send an angel to touch my lips with coal.

Rub some dirt in my eyes.

I’d walk to Siloam or to the ends of the earth

If you told me that I’d be able to touch the hem of your robe.

 

Like the trees in a storm, I am groaning for the sun.

Groaning for the day when this body will be made new.

When I shall run unhindered to your side.

When I sing of love without a stutter.

When I shall see beauty without having to look through fogged glass.

Come Quickly.

Oh, please come quickly.

 

Spoken Word

An Almost Love Letter to Myself

I did a thing tonight. I went to this {amazing} meet up where I talked with another writer and we just sat in silence and wrote. Most days, writing is a solitary task, but tonight I got to sit at table with someone as we each did our own thing.Yes, it was a dream come true.

We started off the night by doing a little creative exercise where we wrote a Love Letter to ourselves. I knew before I started that my self-depreciation wasn’t going to let me get more than one or two lines in before hijacking the bus, but I thought it’d be fun to see where things go. And I was pleased to see that at the end of twenty minutes, I’d actually liked what I’d put down on paper. Was it a love letter? Pssshhh… course not. But it was close (kind of).

Truly thankful for the opportunity to be an introvert with other people and develop our craft together. Til next time, Athena.


You are bold.

I’ve always loved that about you,

except when I hate it.

So, I guess it just depends on the day.

I remember when you were a little girl,

you would come home crying

because you had opened that mouth of yours just a little too much.

Opened your heart just a little too much.

Let them see you just a little too much.

And people didn’t always like what was hidden beneath those fire red curls.

So, your tears would fall hard on journal pages

where you could say all you had in you and no one would ask you to stop.

How many time did you beg God to make you like all the other girls?

Quiet and graceful- a southern belle in modern day.

But you were from Iowa, so there was never a chance of that.

Fifteen years later, I hate to tell you those prayers weren’t answered.

You’re still that girl who says more than she’s supposed to,

always clamping her hand over her mouth half way through a sentence.

Fifteen years later, I hate to tell you that you’re learning to love it.

You’re learning to look people in the eye, and tell them what you’re thinking

That you’re learning the when’s and the how’s so that people actually listen.

That you’re learning to make them listen.

And yes, you’re learning to say I’m sorry,

because sometimes you do say the wrong thing at the wrong time to the wrong person.

But sometimes you also say the right thing.

Sometimes you say thing that the world needs to hear.

Sometimes you say the thing that one little girl needs to hear.

And maybe when she’s ten years old, she won’t come home crying

begging God to make her someone else.

Because when she looked at you-

hands raised in the air realizing just how wonderfully crafted she was-

and said so matter-of fact-ly,

“Ms. Bekah. I’m pretty. And smart. And funny. And Awesome.”

You pulled her close and whispered in her ear what you never said to yourself

“Yea, baby girl, and don’t you forget it.”

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Happy Birthday Little Blog

One year ago today, I started a challenge to cut back on my consumption, and spend at least fifteen minutes every day creating. There were no other parameters. I could knit. I could draw. I could write. Yes, I would write.  I didn’t know if I would  make it through a whole year, but I thought I could try. So I spent the last year establishing a habit of creativity.

And let me tell you friend, this is a habit I will cultivate the rest of my life.


In the beginning, there were days where sitting down to write seemed like the hardest thing I could ever to do. There were nights where I would come home, and I just wanted to fall asleep. But I didn’t do that. I pulled out my computer, and I forced my keyboard  to form pictures  out of words.

And it has changed the way I live each day.

Now, I know I’m prone to hyperboles, so some of you may not be believe me when I say this. However, my hope is that by the end of this blog/rant you may grasp the tremendous effect of a small habit. My hope is that you may be encouraged to do the same as I did. To pick up a paintbrush. To put your words down on a page. To do whatever it is your hands have been tingling to create.

So, you want proof, right? How did this silly little habit change my life? I took a long list of twelve, and narrowed it down to two things that this habit of creativity is teaching me. Neither one has anything to do with skill or craft mastery, because that is not what’s important. I’m not asking you to spend time creating so that you can be a better artist (although that will indeed happen), but because I know that along the way you will grow more in love with your Maker, his creation, and -dare I say it- yourself. So, without further ado…

2 things Creativity is teaching me.

1. There is still magic to be found in this broken world. 

I mentioned a few moments ago that when I first began this endeavor, I struggled with what to write about. It would take me an entire month to write a poem. I didn’t know how to generate ideas. My friends will tell you I’m a do-er.  Give me a task and I become a horse with blinders. The end is all I can see, and I’m going to run as fast as I can to get there. But that’s now how Creativity works. You can’t force it. It’s not something you can mark off your to do lists.

Creativity for me is a lot like Pokemon Go. (I bet you never saw that sentence coming.)  You can’t sit in your house on your computer and wait for cute little monsters to show up at your doorstep. You have to go out into the world and walk around a bit. Only instead of searching for Pokemon, you’re searching for beauty – for magic.  You’re searching for something that makes your heart sing. And when you find it, pull out that Poke Ball and capture it (which is easier said than done, I know). Stick  it in iPhone Notes App and let it grow. Collect more, and let them grow. They will evolve and become stronger and more beautiful. And then, that’s when you share them.  Because beauty is a lot like the little boy with two fish and five loaves. When you have something to offer, you may not think it’s enough, but offer it up anyways. And the next thing you know, it’s the hands of One who can take your small offering and feed a crowd of thousands. The more beauty is shared, the more it multiplies.

So when the shopkeeper down the street is laughing loudly with his brother like an unhindered child, catch it. When the sun makes the cobblestone streets glow a dull pink color just before sunset, catch it.

Because YES, in the midst of all the bombings and strife and wars and hate-filled speeches, there is still beauty to be found. I’ve seen it. I’ve experienced it. And I want to share it. I want to bring it out of the background of our photographs and into the forefront of ours minds. When we have long forgotten about our Maker and Savior, it is beauty that can bring us back. It is beauty that can give us hope, that just maybe, things won’t always be this way. Could it be that there’s more to this life than toil and pain?

Yes. And I’ve got Poke balls full of moments to prove it.

My iPhone Notes App is filled with lines of poems I have yet to finish. (It’s kind of a mess, really.) In between grocery lists and to do lists and all sorts of lists, I’ll find these little gems: two or three lines of a poem or a song, or an idea for a short story that I typed out while waiting in line or  walking home from work. I’m learning to channel a simple moment into verse. You don’t have to “catch em all”, but what if you just started just searching for one?

2. There is no such thing as failure. 

Before this year, I had never tried watercolor. I had always loved the feeling of brush stroke swishing across a page, but I was afraid I wouldn’t be good at it. Now is the time when I would very much like want to go off on a philosophical tangent about what “being good at” something even means, but I won’t do that. Because frankly, it doesn’t matter. You see, it doesn’t matter if your flowers look like mud puddles when you draw. Do you enjoy it? Wonderful, then draw. If it is moral and physically/financially possible for you, and you enjoy it -whatever “it” is- then do it. It doesn’t matter if you’re good at it. What matters is that it’s good for you.

That’s what I love about art really. It’s so gracious. Art by very definition is experimental. It molds over time and with each person who handles it. It doesn’t judge but simply submits itself to whatever the artist needs from it. Art doesn’t seek results, it seeks transformation. It seeks communication. Any criticism that we receive comes not from the our creation, but from ourselves. This year, I have learned to accept that I am human. In fact, I’ve learned to enjoy it. This life-long learning curve can be fun if you free yourself from this silly idea of perfection.

I’ve been wanting to write “A Fortress for Aeda” for years. I kept myself from it, because I knew I would never be as good as C.S. Lewis. I’m not kidding; that’s why I didn’t write. I was embarrassed that I would never be the writer that he is. And while I still treasure him as a writer, I’m learning to love myself as a writer as well. I like the way I see things. I like that I’m a cynic who writes fairy tales. And I believe that the stories I’m writing needs to be heard, just as I believe every child everyone should read the Chronicles of Narnia.

I’m going to tell my stories with all the beauty and charm and goodness that I can muster. And that is enough.


In short, this year I realized that being a dreamer was a good thing, because dreamers see the world as it will be. And I am learning how to take those dreams and slowly bring them into being. And yes, I’m probably not going to be the next Lewis. But when we stop defining success as a destination and more of journey, then we don’t have to be afraid of failure because it won’t exist. But if we simply strive to call beauty out from it’s hiding place, then every day we can work with joy knowing that what we have to offer matters.

Oh, and my big announcement?

A Fortress for Aeda is currently going through (and has been for several months) some very intensive rewriting and editing sessions. She’s getting new chapters and her old ones are getting reworked because, well, I’m going to publish her.

The goal is to have “A Fortress for Aeda” out by Thanksgiving. (Okay, Christmas at the very latest).

A year ago, I’d barely written anything. I just had this dream of one day writing a novel. Maybe. And I’ve still got so far to go. But I’m taking hold of my dream. I’m working towards it. And it started with 15 minutes.

So, please friend. Start today. Right now. Pull out those pencils, go buy that new watercolor pallet, start that story you’ve been writing in your head. Get your hands dirty with beauty.

You have the time. You have the creativity (I promise you). And you can not fail.

 

Spoken Word

Today I Wandered

Yesterday, I had an introvert day. I painted and colored and cleaned and baked, all sorts of magical things. And I decided that I should take a break from all things good and go for a quick run. I begrudging put my aesics on and gave myself the usual peptalk. “Just do 20 minutes and you can be lazy and sit in your pajamas the rest of the day. Here, put on audiobook. This could be fun.”

Instead of taking my normal route to the nearest park and back, I decided to roam up and down the streets of Lichtenberg. I quickly found a new park, and with no google maps to tell how big it was, I just decided to wander in and see what I could find. “It couldn’t be that big,” I thought. “And it looks like it heads back toward home.” I should’ve known better.  Twenty minutes in and I was so lost, but I had never been more happy to be that way. I found a castle, old graves, a pasture full of sheep. Yes, in the middle of Berlin, I found a pasture of sheep. There were vines growing over old buildings and little summer shacks where women were out pruning their gardens. I was about 50 minutes into my run at this point (it should be noted that I am not actually in shape, and my body hurts like mad today) and I still had no idea where I was. But it was glorious. As a super planner control freak, I don’t just wander like this. Most of my days are calculated, each activity has a beginning and end time. I pride myself on being efficient, but make fun of how inobservant I can be. And after yesterday, I realized the two might go hand in hand.What do I give up when I cram more things into my day? What beauties do I miss out on? What precious moments?

So, as my year of learning creativity comes to a close (look for my 1 year birthday post on AUGUST 12th!) I’m wondering if this next year needs to include less doing and more dwelling.

But these are just silly ramblings that come before I present a poem. I’m just stalling to press to publish button. I really need to work on that. 🙂 But with nothing else to say, I think I’ll let you read my poem now. Read it, and then go out a wander some.

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Today I wandered for I had else nothing do,

so I humbled myself to walk underneath the sky’s hues.

My feet followed paths I knew not where they lead,

and I listed to my heart instead of a plan.

Secret passages laid undiscovered for I had not the time,

but perhaps if I had known, I would have sooner changed my mind.

For when I took the time to finally look around,

I saw magic in the making, just waiting to be found.

 

Shrub and vine held up buildings on the verge on collapse.

Wildflowers sprung from gravestones, bringing life from the ash.

The women tended their gardens, calling color from the dirt,

And I mourned that it has taken me this long to finally see the earth.

But now I call forth: “You are good, beautiful and true.”

You have revived my soul, like water seeping into roots.

As if only by beholding, there is beauty now in me.

As if by seeing you, I have seen what is holy.

 

Though I ran for hours, I did not once grow weary

For how could my legs stop when my eyes saw such beauty

I threw my head back and laughed as I turned round a bend,

I giggled as a school girl for all the glory flowing in.

And as I ran through the forest, the trees reached down to me.

So that I could touch their branches, and from their spirit glean.

Though my journey shortly ended, I returned home not the same

For there was wonder in my heart and peace running through my veins.

 

Spoken Word

The Sky Has Already Fallen

The sky has already fallen

and I don’t recognize this new horizon.

Now my mind may wander but it cannot comprehend

this cataclysm that so easily wrecked my plan.

 

Like waves in the ocean the mountains fell,

left me trying to climb up the swell.

But every solid hold I grasped poured out from my hand.

I’m a fish out of water, a foreigner in this land.

 

The mountains I once called my home have fallen into the sea.

The sidewalks that once lead me to you have cracked beneath my feet.

Now there’s an ocean between us and it’s sink or swim it seems.

But if you ask me to come to you, I’ll meet you somewhere in between.

 

Could you build a bridge across this divide?

Pull me out of this rising tide?

For I know that I must cross this ever shifting sea,

It’s just that right now I’m afraid of stepping in too deep.

 

Yet with each step I take towards this new sunrise

I’m getting closer to the fusing of you and I.

And suddenly we’re in the middle, far from either shore

Must I choose between what lies behind me or before?