Spoken Word

Beauty From Ashes // Spoken Word Ed.

One of my dearest friends, Bobbi Jo Brooks made a painting for me last year entitled Beauty From Ashes. We spoke a lot about the themes of the painting and I fell in love with the painting and everything it represents. When she presented it to me, we talked about me one day writing a poem to accompany it. A year later, I finally managed to capture some of Bobbi Jo’s ideas in words. The fruit of that is displayed below.

For more of Bobbi Jo’s work, go to her website bobbijobrooks.com

https://youtu.be/idkQ8ANf7i4

Beauty from Ashesby Rebekah Eckard

If you stand far enough away,

you’ll only notice the gold and white running down my body.

I shimmer in the sunlight and dance in the shadows.

You call me beautiful. Lovely.

As Pretty as a Painting.
I am a work of art,

not meant to be admired but experienced.

Come closer and touch me.

See for yourself what I truly am.

Run your fingers along my skin,

and find that I am not just a shell.

There is more to my story than what your eyes can see.

 

I am not a blank canvas.

Underneath my beauty there is a past.

There is always a past.

It’s only when you get close enough

that you begin to see the bumps and bruises-

the accumulation of ash that lies beneath

Years and years of failed perfection

Heaped upon the burning fragments

Of unmet expectations, hopes dashed from the rooftops,

falling short in all the ways I wanted to succeed.

Yet the artist took me as I was.

My bumps and bruises not a hindrance

But a foundation to be built upon.

Color and paint poured over and over

Soothing my enflamed wounds.

Making wonder from the darkest parts of me.

I can feel these new elements forever changing who I am.

Not hiding, but transforming.

Ash glittering into gold.

Ridged landscapes smoothing into porcelain.

So you see beauty where once was brokenness.
Yes, I am more than a pretty picture.

I am a living, breathing story

Echoing throughout time.

Ashes to Beauty.

Death to Life.

Come closer and see for yourself.

Come closer, and see yourself.

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Inklings of my own

 

Inklings 2018 pic     It’s that day again… the day I bake scones, drink coffee with friends and celebrate two wonderful writers whose works cultivated a love for myths in me at an early age. C.S. Lewis, author of The Chronicles of Narnia, and J.R.R. Tolkien, author of The Lord of the Rings, met on this day over ninety years ago. Shortly thereafter, Tolkien sent Lewis an epic poem he had written. It was filled with lore and myth and the fantastical realm, passions they both shared. Lewis returned the poem several days later with notes, critiques and even suggestions for how Tolkien could make his lines flow better. Can you imagine actually critiquing Tolkien? It sounds almost absurd. But Lewis did, as well as passing along one of his own poems. And so began a small community revolving around this idea of sharing and critiquing one another’s works. You might know them as the Inklings.

But today, instead of talking about the original Inklings, and their vast influence on each other and the countless books birthed through their gatherings, I want to tell you about my own set of Inklings.

In 2016, I moved to Berlin for a 9-month internship. (Yes. Yes. Two years later I’m still here, but that’s another story.) About three months in, I realized the short story that I had been playing around with wasn’t a short story. Much to my great displeasure, it was a novel. I was a little baby writer who had written a mere handful of things. This craft was new to me, and I had no idea what I was doing. To be cliché, I found myself in front of a mountain with no map, no supplies, and no training whatsoever.

By grace, I had moved to a city that embraces artists and I found a writing class targeted toward people who were just starting to write their novels and needed guidance. Oddly specific right? Kate, my teacher was brilliant, wise, experienced and kind. (*Insert shameless plug for the Reader Berlin and Kate who is AMAZING).

We spent the first four weeks learning the basics of novel writing, and the last four weeks reading a chapter of each other’s work and critiquing the pieces in class. Once again, I had no idea what I was doing. My typical response to art had always been “I really liked it” or “this is so beautiful.” And that wasn’t good enough here. It was fine to say those two phrases, but it needed to be followed by a “because…” or a “but…”

I also learned it was okay not to say those two phrases. That is was perfectly fine to look at a writer and politely say, “you know, this wasn’t really my thing. However, I did appreciate when you…” For a half-southern girl raised in the land of buttered words and sugared expressions, being open and honest when I didn’t like something felt like I was slapping someone in the face and kicking them in the stomach once they fell in the dirt.    But then it was my turn to have my piece critiqued, and I realized that critique isn’t a slap in the face at all, but a friend telling me to pick up the pen and try again. Critique can be a loving teacher pointing out what I need to work on and how I could improve. Every single person at that table took time to read my work, think about how it could improve, and share their thoughts with me. They didn’t do this to be cruel, they did this so that one day my dream of seeing Aedaliegh of Arceldör in a bookstore might become reality.

When the course ended, a few of us would meet at coffee shops throughout the city to sit quietly at a table and write together. The next course came and we signed up again, seeking more feedback and more knowledge of writing as a craft. When Kate offered her next course, an entire 10 weeks solely spent reading and critiquing each other’s work, I immediately signed up. This, I was learning, was how I really get my novel to go somewhere. Yes, it was helpful to learn about different styles of narration, using third person verse first person, and so much more. But I found that the critique is what spurred my book to be better. Not just when my own piece was critiqued, but also in the critiquing of others I learned what worked and what didn’t,  to spot a mistake, and even to anticipate what some of the feedback might be and make it better as I was writing the first draft.

Somewhere at the end of the third course, Kate hinted that some of us might be able to do this critique thing on our own. As we walked back to the subway that night, a few of us asked, “Could we really do this? Start our own group? Do we even want to?”

That August, five of us met in a living room and began this process on our own. We didn’t know how long it would last, but we wanted to see where it would go. It’s been hard. We’re all incredibly busy. Some of us have families. Some of us have had to leave the country for three months. I started a new job that makes me get up at 4:30 am on Tuesdays even though writing group last until 10 or 11 pm on Monday nights. We have had to make sacrificed to be in this group. We’re tired. We have little time. But all of us have made our books and this group a priority because we know it is one of the keys to our success.

A few weeks ago, I shared a scene I’d been hiding from this group for nearly two years. I was so nervous they would read this scene, throw the paper across the room and say something like, “What in the world, Bekah! You must be absolutely insane to write something like this.” But after two years with the group, I finally decided I trust them enough to share it. They loved it, which is still the most shocking thing that’s happened. They absolutely loved it and made me promise not to take it out. Then came the “but..” at the end of the chapter with a really sweet and lovely little moment I had written between Aeda and Fryderik. And my girl, Laura, looked at me, and said, “I was shocked because Aeda would never do this. It’s not her at all.”

She was right. It took me a minute to see what she was saying, but it hit me. Aeda would never do what I had her doing at the end of this scene. It went against everything she was. That night, Aeda got a wardrobe change, and all because Laura, over the past two years, has gotten to know my character almost as good as I have. I’ve said it for the last two years and I’ll say it again now…

The secret to creativity is to surround ourselves with a community. We were not made to work in solitude, but to share, to borrow, and to build upon each other.

When I tell people about this group, and what we do, they always say, “Oh, I must be hard to critique someone’s work. I could never do that.” And while that used to be my same opinion, I reply, “It’s not so hard after a while. I love their work, and I want to see them succeed.” And it’s true. I want to buy their books one day. I want them to buy mine. And in order for that to happen, you need more than one set of eyes.

The secret to the Inklings success was each other. C.S. Lewis may have never gotten some of his works published had it not been for Tolkien’s connections and recommendations (not to mention that his Space Trilogy actually started out as a dare from Tolkien.) Tolkien may have never gotten his head out of languages and anthologies long enough to write a plot had it not been for Lewis urging him to write the next chapter so that he could see what happens in the story.

If I ever get Aeda published, it will be because of these women. They have kept me writing when I was tired and wanted to forget Aeda altogether. They have given me ideas when I had no idea where to go. They have given me encouragement and critique. They have helped me see things I never did, and have made turned this lonely task of writing into a story of how I found my people.

I passionately believe that every Artist needs their Inklings. I will never stop proclaiming this. If you’re a lonely artist, you don’t have to be. Join a group. Create a group. Less than two years ago, these five women were strangers from five different parts of the world with three different mother tongues. And yet, two years later, here we are because we showed up, we spent time thinking through each other’s work, and we were honest with one another.

I believe that our success as artists directly correlates to the community around us. Today, I celebrate the five women who sit in a living room with me once a month and make Aeda more lovely, more true, and more captivating than she could ever be with just me.

If you don’t have your Inklings, find them. It will take time, but find them and let them revolutionize your work. They will, I promise.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Spoken Word

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Surprise, Surpise. I wrote another poem* about my tattoos. I read it at a friend of mines party this week and thought I’d share it here. One day, I’d like to be one of those spoken word artists whose words pour out from their mouths slowly like molasses, full of body and rich flavor. Until then, I’ll hold tightly to my phone and say one too many “um”s before I start. We’re all learning how to be creatives. We all learning to speak boldly and look people in the eyes as we say “yes, I’m an artist.” 

*I wouldn’t really call it a poem, more of a “rhythmic rant.”

If you’re in Berlin, stop by “Art on the Terrace” and join our little creative community. 

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A Friendiversary and A Graduation

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It’s that time of year again. The time when I pick a new scone recipe, read a book on the Inklings and write a little rant of a blog post about how we need community. Today is the day that spurred countless books to be written, turned unknown professors into world renown authors, and created an entirely new genre of literature that had never seen before. Today is the Friendiversary of C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien.

 

 

These two men, at first greatly opposed to one another, became friends after discovering a mutual love for Nordic Myths. They began to meet on a weekly basis, reading and translating together, until one day Tolkien arrived with a myth of his own to share, the Lay of Leithian. Lewis not only returned the poem with margins covered in notes and changes that should be made, he also brought one of his owns poem to read. And so the Inklings began.

Over the next twenty years, others, such Owen Barfield and Charles Williams,   would come to join their meetings and share their literary works with the group. Every week, would begin the same way, with Lewis lighting his pipe and asking accusingly, “Well then, has no one got anything to read us?”

We will never fully be able to weigh the effects that question made. Out of this group, literary giants emerged and countless books were written. Before the Inklings, Lewis was a mostly unknown poet who had never tried his hand at fiction. We have Perelandra because Tolkien dared Lewis to write a story about space travel. Tolkien was a philologist who was more interested in creating languages than chiseling away at a plot. We have Lord of the Rings because Lewis encouraged Tolkien to spend less time creating languages and elvish anthologies and more time writing plots. In order for these two men to be who they were created to be, they needed each other. Their success hinged on their friendship.

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again now: The secret to creativity is to surround ourselves with a community. We were not made to work in solitude, but to share, to borrow, and to build upon each other. My community is what kept me up to midnight last night typing at this computer because I promised them that I would send them a new chapter of my novel by the end of the night. My community is what spurred me to even consider writing a novel, when a friend looked me in the eyes, and said, “Maybe Aeda isn’t a short story, maybe she’s a novel.” My Community gave me the courage to pick up a pen. And when I thought I was too exhausted to write another word, my community dipped my pen in ink and whispered encouragingly, “just one more line.” You can always write one more line.

 

As I’ve read through Glyer’s Bandersnatch: The Creative Collaboration of the Inklings,  I began to see my own accomplishments in a different light. Saturday I will graduate with a Masters Degree that’s been four years in the making. I joked with a friend that when I receive my diploma, I want to place an asterisk beside my name, flip over the piece of paper and write out the names of all the people who labored alongside me. Since I won’t be able to walk across a stage (flight tickets from Berlin to Dallas are extraordinarily expensive) today is a chance to for me to celebrate all that my community and I have accomplished together.

*Nancy Postler, my mother, who never let money stop me from following my dream. She never once hesitated when her adult (and self-proclaimed independent) daughter called her freaking out that textbooks cost $700 for one semester. She watched me make mistakes and still helped me pick up the pieces when I realized that she was right all along. Sometimes I forget how great she really is, and then she’ll say, “Don’t worry. We’ll figure all this out.”  So thanks, Mom, for always helping me figure out a way to follow my dreams.

*Stephanie & Christopher Elmerick, my parents across the pond. I was 18 and stupid, proven by the fact that I said in an interview with you, “If you hire me as your intern, am I going to have to babysit your kids? Because I don’t like kids, and I’d rather not do that.” You told me no, that I wouldn’t. But then life changed, and I found myself spending the summer falling in love with three kids. I flew home in August and changed my major to Early Childhood Education. I found my greatest passion because you both welcomed into your family. There is so much more I could say to you two. I could talk about how Stephanie has mentored me in grace and humility and wisdom. I could talk about how Christopher has pushed me to be kinder and more servant-hearted. But I’ll stop there, and simply say that I look more like Jesus because y’all are in my life.

*Nicole, who at one point shared my apartment, my major, and my last name. Thank you for forcing me to volunteer with you in that 2nd grade class on Wednesday Nights. It was my first real experience teaching and I haven’t stopped since.

*John & Ismael, two of my first bosses who both gave me jobs I was unqualified for. They told me that I was good at something and that maybe I should pursue it further. Every job I have since applied to comments on how much experience I have for a person my age. The irony is not lost on me. I am now considered qualified, because of the grace you both showed me.

*Katrina, who let me follow her around as she visited grad schools. I didn’t end up at any of those schools, but it was on the 12 hour road trip back from Chicago when she looked at me in the car and said, “Hey, what about DTS? I’ve heard they have a good program.” We googled it on our smartphones, and I started an application the next day. She has shown me the beauty of being a nerd, and have given me a safe place to be strange. This blog is the product of one of our four hour long conversations of following rabbit trails and youtube videos when she encouraged me to be less of a consumer and more of a creator. I am a better artist because of her.

*Jenna, the first person I met on campus at DTS, and my first friend. She picked me up from the airport at least fifteen times, and let me sleep on her couch when I needed to. She let me ugly cry on her bed. She let me angry rant when a classmate did something that upset me. She is my kindred spirit on a campus where it was hard to sometimes fit in, and I would not have stayed at DTS had I not met her. (Also, she graduated on Saturday too! If I would have made it, we would have stood next to each other in line. So, Congratulations Friend! We made it! I’m so proud of you!)

*Corielle and Beth, the two women who provided me a house and a job when I hit rock bottom my second semester in grad school, moved home, and tried dropping out altogether. They made the rest of my life as easy as possible, so that when I recovered, the damage wouldn’t be as bad. They cried with me, watched HGTV with me, and gave me hard advice that I didn’t want to hear. You both were there for me in one of the darkest seasons I’ve encountered. Thank you.

*To my professors at DTS who let me be who I am. I am proud to have attended a school that encouraged my creativity. In Spring of 2015, I took a class in which we were required to write two poems. Those poems led to a song, which led to me remembering how much I loved writing as a child. Three months later, I started this blog, which led to a short story about a little orphan girl named Aeda. I am a writer because I went to a school that encouraged me to use my creative talents in an intellectual setting. I realize now how rare this truly is.Thank you.

*Lauren, my best friend. When she came home to me crying over a paper that I couldn’t finish, she sat down beside me and talked me through concepts I didn’t understand. She was my sounding board, my “hey, what do you think about this? Am I crazy? Could this be right?” person. And besides being the brilliant woman she is, she proofread all my papers, catching every grammatical error time and again. (Though she didn’t proofread this, so I’m sure she’s wincing a little as she catches all of my mistakes.) Furthermore, in addition to my schoolwork, my novel wouldn’t exist without her. I’ll never forget the moment she looked at me and said, “It’s not a stupid idea. It’s really beautiful actually.” Those simple words spurred me to start telling a story that I’d been too scared to even attempt for four years. A year later, she looked at my little short story and encouraged me to consider turning it into a novel. She always knows how to say the right thing, the true thing, and the scary thing all at once.

I am graduating on Saturday because of these people. It may be my name on the Diploma, just as it may be Tolkien’s name on The Lord of the Rings. But we all know that I would not be at this point without these people. They are my community. My family. My Inklings. They have pushed me to start things I thought were beyond my reach, and have held me up when I thought about quitting. Thank you for your struggles, your sacrifice, and your work on my behalf. If I have accomplished anything, it is because of you all.

So, today, let’s celebrate friendship. Let’s celebrate what a community is capable of.

 

 

 

 

 

Aedaliegh of Arceldör · Short Stories · Songs · Spoken Word

Stomp ( A Folk Song)

Okay,y’all. I need your help. Below you will find an excerpt from the (children’s) novel I’m working on. It’s a scene I’ve been playing with for a while, and simply can’t figure out how to make the *stomp* part work in print. So, I would love and appreciate your input and ideas on how to best convey what I see and hear in my head. This is group effort, so y’all chime in.

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Nikolai Astrup’s Midsummer Eve Bonfire, 1912.

 

Tonight, it was the Gehimni people who were given the honor of entertaining. More than twenty Gehimni men and women ran around the fire, hollering and making noise. It snowed in the Gehimnis for nine months out of the year, and so most of the bed had long beards that covered the majority of their face, and the women wore long skirts made of animal skin with all kinds of braids strung about in their hair. Suddenly, the Gehimini performers stopped running around the fire, and the women took their spots in a circle on the ground. A man began to strum a mandolin, as the others began to stomp their feet to his rhythm. The men threw their knees high up in the air only to bring their smashing back down with the force of a ten horses. Each of the Gehmini men fell in sync with one another until one man threw his head back and howled at the top of his lungs, Ooooooooooooohhhh, and the other men followed his lead.

I’ve seen the mountain tops and I’ve gaped at the sea,

but never has this wanderer beheld a beauty such as thee.

I’d scale the mountains tops and sail across the sea,

if you’d be waiting for me with a white dress and a ring.

 

Yer nose is as pointy as the snowy peaks,

and yer eyes are more emerald than the evergreen.

I know I ain’t much to look at, my darling sweet,

but I got heart a gold somewhere underneath.

 

My heart when it saw you went *stomp stomp stomp*

And my lips started singing this horrid song.

But my dear please know that if you love me so,

I’ll sing this song to you until we’re grey and old.

 

I’ve got a house here in these woods, I bet yer Papa would be proud.

‘Gotta fireplace and a porch that goes all around,

but I’m stilling miss something, perhaps a spritely frau.

So what do ye say, will ye marry me now?

 

The women sitting on the edge of the crowd jumped up and joined arms with the men, and together they danced a polka around the fire. They weren’t the best of singers, but that didn’t stop every single man and woman from singing, or rather yelling, at the top of his or her lungs. If only they would sing on key, they’d be quite good. The entire camp was mesmerized by them, and they joined in with the stomping and clapping with just as much vigor as if they had known the songs their entire lives.

 

Darlin’ let me dance with you until this night ends.

Yes, come a little closer. I don’t mind those hairs on yer chin.

Yer back is strong from plowing and I sure do love yer apple pie.

Oh, you’re the only woman who could ever catch my eye.

 

My heart when it saw you went  *stomp stomp stomp*

And my lips started singing this horrid song

But my dear please know that if you love me so

I’ll sing this song to you until we’re grey and old.

Yes, I’ll sing this song to you until we’re grey and old.


Also, would English speaking children know what a “frau” is? Can I use that word in a “fantasy” novel?  Thoughts? Comments? Suggestions?

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Happy Birthday Little Blog

One year ago today, I started a challenge to cut back on my consumption, and spend at least fifteen minutes every day creating. There were no other parameters. I could knit. I could draw. I could write. Yes, I would write.  I didn’t know if I would  make it through a whole year, but I thought I could try. So I spent the last year establishing a habit of creativity.

And let me tell you friend, this is a habit I will cultivate the rest of my life.


In the beginning, there were days where sitting down to write seemed like the hardest thing I could ever to do. There were nights where I would come home, and I just wanted to fall asleep. But I didn’t do that. I pulled out my computer, and I forced my keyboard  to form pictures  out of words.

And it has changed the way I live each day.

Now, I know I’m prone to hyperboles, so some of you may not be believe me when I say this. However, my hope is that by the end of this blog/rant you may grasp the tremendous effect of a small habit. My hope is that you may be encouraged to do the same as I did. To pick up a paintbrush. To put your words down on a page. To do whatever it is your hands have been tingling to create.

So, you want proof, right? How did this silly little habit change my life? I took a long list of twelve, and narrowed it down to two things that this habit of creativity is teaching me. Neither one has anything to do with skill or craft mastery, because that is not what’s important. I’m not asking you to spend time creating so that you can be a better artist (although that will indeed happen), but because I know that along the way you will grow more in love with your Maker, his creation, and -dare I say it- yourself. So, without further ado…

2 things Creativity is teaching me.

1. There is still magic to be found in this broken world. 

I mentioned a few moments ago that when I first began this endeavor, I struggled with what to write about. It would take me an entire month to write a poem. I didn’t know how to generate ideas. My friends will tell you I’m a do-er.  Give me a task and I become a horse with blinders. The end is all I can see, and I’m going to run as fast as I can to get there. But that’s now how Creativity works. You can’t force it. It’s not something you can mark off your to do lists.

Creativity for me is a lot like Pokemon Go. (I bet you never saw that sentence coming.)  You can’t sit in your house on your computer and wait for cute little monsters to show up at your doorstep. You have to go out into the world and walk around a bit. Only instead of searching for Pokemon, you’re searching for beauty – for magic.  You’re searching for something that makes your heart sing. And when you find it, pull out that Poke Ball and capture it (which is easier said than done, I know). Stick  it in iPhone Notes App and let it grow. Collect more, and let them grow. They will evolve and become stronger and more beautiful. And then, that’s when you share them.  Because beauty is a lot like the little boy with two fish and five loaves. When you have something to offer, you may not think it’s enough, but offer it up anyways. And the next thing you know, it’s the hands of One who can take your small offering and feed a crowd of thousands. The more beauty is shared, the more it multiplies.

So when the shopkeeper down the street is laughing loudly with his brother like an unhindered child, catch it. When the sun makes the cobblestone streets glow a dull pink color just before sunset, catch it.

Because YES, in the midst of all the bombings and strife and wars and hate-filled speeches, there is still beauty to be found. I’ve seen it. I’ve experienced it. And I want to share it. I want to bring it out of the background of our photographs and into the forefront of ours minds. When we have long forgotten about our Maker and Savior, it is beauty that can bring us back. It is beauty that can give us hope, that just maybe, things won’t always be this way. Could it be that there’s more to this life than toil and pain?

Yes. And I’ve got Poke balls full of moments to prove it.

My iPhone Notes App is filled with lines of poems I have yet to finish. (It’s kind of a mess, really.) In between grocery lists and to do lists and all sorts of lists, I’ll find these little gems: two or three lines of a poem or a song, or an idea for a short story that I typed out while waiting in line or  walking home from work. I’m learning to channel a simple moment into verse. You don’t have to “catch em all”, but what if you just started just searching for one?

2. There is no such thing as failure. 

Before this year, I had never tried watercolor. I had always loved the feeling of brush stroke swishing across a page, but I was afraid I wouldn’t be good at it. Now is the time when I would very much like want to go off on a philosophical tangent about what “being good at” something even means, but I won’t do that. Because frankly, it doesn’t matter. You see, it doesn’t matter if your flowers look like mud puddles when you draw. Do you enjoy it? Wonderful, then draw. If it is moral and physically/financially possible for you, and you enjoy it -whatever “it” is- then do it. It doesn’t matter if you’re good at it. What matters is that it’s good for you.

That’s what I love about art really. It’s so gracious. Art by very definition is experimental. It molds over time and with each person who handles it. It doesn’t judge but simply submits itself to whatever the artist needs from it. Art doesn’t seek results, it seeks transformation. It seeks communication. Any criticism that we receive comes not from the our creation, but from ourselves. This year, I have learned to accept that I am human. In fact, I’ve learned to enjoy it. This life-long learning curve can be fun if you free yourself from this silly idea of perfection.

I’ve been wanting to write “A Fortress for Aeda” for years. I kept myself from it, because I knew I would never be as good as C.S. Lewis. I’m not kidding; that’s why I didn’t write. I was embarrassed that I would never be the writer that he is. And while I still treasure him as a writer, I’m learning to love myself as a writer as well. I like the way I see things. I like that I’m a cynic who writes fairy tales. And I believe that the stories I’m writing needs to be heard, just as I believe every child everyone should read the Chronicles of Narnia.

I’m going to tell my stories with all the beauty and charm and goodness that I can muster. And that is enough.


In short, this year I realized that being a dreamer was a good thing, because dreamers see the world as it will be. And I am learning how to take those dreams and slowly bring them into being. And yes, I’m probably not going to be the next Lewis. But when we stop defining success as a destination and more of journey, then we don’t have to be afraid of failure because it won’t exist. But if we simply strive to call beauty out from it’s hiding place, then every day we can work with joy knowing that what we have to offer matters.

Oh, and my big announcement?

A Fortress for Aeda is currently going through (and has been for several months) some very intensive rewriting and editing sessions. She’s getting new chapters and her old ones are getting reworked because, well, I’m going to publish her.

The goal is to have “A Fortress for Aeda” out by Thanksgiving. (Okay, Christmas at the very latest).

A year ago, I’d barely written anything. I just had this dream of one day writing a novel. Maybe. And I’ve still got so far to go. But I’m taking hold of my dream. I’m working towards it. And it started with 15 minutes.

So, please friend. Start today. Right now. Pull out those pencils, go buy that new watercolor pallet, start that story you’ve been writing in your head. Get your hands dirty with beauty.

You have the time. You have the creativity (I promise you). And you can not fail.

 

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Find Your Inklings [Creating in Community]

Today’s blog is in honor of Lewis & Tolkien’s Friendiversary. So go grab yourself a scone and a cup of tea, and your favorite book. And remind yourself of the beautiful things that can be created when we surround ourselves with people who help us dream.

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A few weeks ago, I found an amazon gift card I received -and promptly lost- as a Christmas present. This led to an impulsive splurge on Amazon with the first book I could find. Two days later (shout out to amazon prime), I found “a Hobbit, a Wardrobe, and a Great War” sitting on my doorstep. True to it’s title, the book considers how the first World War influenced the writings of Tolkien and Lewis, who spent time in the trenches as foot soldiers. I’ve never been detail oriented enough to sit through a history lesson well, but throw in a story and you’ll have me hanging off the edge of my seat. And that’s exactly what Loconte does, weaving in both Tolkien’s and Lewis’s personal experiences while also casting a broad scope of the War and it’s effects on England.

Almost inevitably I came across a section on the friendship between Lewis, Tolkien and the rest of the Inklings and I found myself gripping the page tightly and smiling like a fool. Most of us have probably heard of the famous group that met together at Oxford. However, it was upon reading this portion of the book that I began to understand the magnitude of their devotion to one another. For sixteen years, the group met every Tuesday morning and Thursday night to share their stories with one another. Even -perhaps especially- in the midst of the Second World War, they continued to meet. Even once their time together had ended, Lewis and Tolkien continued meeting and reading each other’s writings aloud to the other. Tolkien, said of Lewis in a letter,

“C.S. Lewis is a very old friend and colleague of mine, and indeed I owe to his encouragement the fact that in spite of every obstacle [including the 1939 war] I persevered and eventually finished The Lord of the Rings. He heard all of it, bit by bit, read aloud.”

Think about the countless hours Lewis and Tolkien must have spent reading through Lord of the Rings together.  Lewis, probably being the first to ever hear parts of the story, had a critical role in it’s completion. In a time when fantasy and heroes had been exchanged for skepticism and machinery, Lewis saw the NEED for Tolkien’s story to be told. He saw a need for the public of England, blinded with the Enlightenment, to experience and believe in myth, in hero, and in adventure once again. He saw the need for the simple country folk to understand what could become of a world that tears down the Shire to build factories upon it. And He saw the need for a generation of men to mourn those lost in the war.

“So much of your whole life,” said Lewis in a letter to Tolkien,” so much of our joint life, so much of the war, so much that seemed to be slipping away quite spurlos [without a trace] into the past, is now, in a sort made permanent.” While Tolkien had his head stuck in piles of paper and ink, Lewis was able to look upwards- toward the future- and see what would become of all of it. And when it came time for Lewis to publish his own tales, The Chronicles of Narnia, it was Tolkien who wrote to his publisher, imploring him to consider the books.

As I sit here, in a coffee shop some eighty years later, I can’t help but draw parallels to my own hardships as a writer. I’ve had a story of my own stuck in my head for four years now, though I haven’t had the courage to start writing it until recently. As I set about putting it in print, I realized I had some major plot holes in the story. I tried to come up with a creative solution, but I just could not get past them. I kept telling myself, “No, that’s stupid, that won’t work” over and over again. (Let me tell you right now that there’s nothing that kills creativity more than a good dose of self doubt.) But one day, as I found myself without internet access and sitting on my best friend’s couch, I began talking through my story with her. For the better part of an hour, she sat there and just listened. And then, something miraculous happened: she told me I wasn’t stupid and told me to keep talking. She told me my idea wasn’t as horrible as I thought, that it might actually be beautiful. I felt like a paralytic who had just been healed- ever stagnant but now could get up and walk -maybe even run- wherever I chose. One week later, I had written through one plot hole, finding hope and confidence that I could overcome the others that I would face. So, when reading of the consistent support that Lewis and Tolkien had for one another, I wondered if maybe this is the secret to creativity. And I’d like to submit to you that it just might be. That in order for us to thrive as artists, we need a friend to come along side us and say “Your idea isn’t ridiculous, it’s beautiful. You have to do this.” When we are stuck in the moment and all we can see is that obstacle we don’t think we can get past- when all we can hear are the no’s and cannot’s, we need someone to walk up and speak loudly, “Yes, you can. And if you can’t, then we’ll do it together. Because what you have to say is beautiful and what you have to say is needed. This broken world needs the light that you’re bringing into being.” There’s a reason almost every book or CD on the shelf has an acknowledgements section. It doesn’t matter whose name is on the cover, we all know it wasn’t a singular endeavor. We all have someone to thank for helping us finish the work that was started.

Even our Maker did not do His work alone. In the beginning, when God created the heavens, He chose to do it in community with himself. Our trinitarian Lord- the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit- collaborated for the making of his masterpiece. “Come, let us make man in our image.” Minds in one accord with one another planned and plotted together, speaking affirmation after each creation, “Yes, indeed, it is good.” The Almighty created in community, and that should serve a strong lesson for those of us, who are only makers mirroring Him in whose image we were formed. We can never be too good at our craft to walk this journey alone. Community is an essential part of our Creator, and it’s an essential part of us who are made in His image.

So, friend, whatever your obstacle or “plot hole” is at the moment, find someone who’s willing to spend an hour just listening to you. Find someone who sees the beauty is what you’re doing, and who can speak that over you when you’ve lost your sight. Find someone who will let you return the favor. Creativity isn’t meant to be done in solitude; it’s meant to be borrowed and shared and built upon.

So go out and find your Inklings, for we were never meant to create alone. 

 

 

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The Inklings

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